Wrassling me some time

Okay, I'm really trying to be very zen and balanced about this time management shit, but I have to say that some things are simply not going to get done very well -- and they wouldn't, even if I were able (and wanted) to devote myself to each of them 24/7.

Some things come up over which I have little control. Yesterday afternoon an ad hoc meeting was called for today to address pressing issues related to the search for a new chair. Gotta be there, despite the fact that I have 69 exercises to grade by 6 p.m. tonight when the class meets and I'd planned to spend the entire day dealing with those.. 

Will I get them all done?  Hard to say. Won't know until 6 p.m. rolls around. I'll do my best -- that's all I can do. And that will have to be good enough.

Same thing goes for weight.  I'm a few pounds above goal at the moment. Culprit? Night-time carb stress-eating.   Cut out those carbs and the weight will drop, guaranteed. It's a pity all I really want to do is waltz into the sunset with a baguette and some butter, however (particularly as those bread carbs can lead to really stinky gas!). I'm going to have to strike some kind of balance here.

I have to confess it's a real head game, too: at 2.2 pounds over goal, what I see in the mirror differs dramatically from what I see when I'm at or below goal -- even though, realistically speaking, I know that the difference is imperceptible to others. I figure this is a glimpse of the body dysmorphia that comes with the territory of bulimia or anorexia nervosa. I don't suffer from either -- but this gives me a visceral peek into what living in my head might feel like if I did.

Okay, well, knowing that, I think 1) I'll have a protein shake to make sure my protein is in the daily 90+ grams range -- which in turn will make me less inclined to run away with a baguette (fortunately, there are no baguettes in the house at the moment) because upping my protein takes away some of those carby urges.

And then, if I really want to, 2) I'll have some popcorn.  Fortunately, that's a carb that doesn't seem to impact my weight one way or another.  (Chocolate?  That's another story.)

Comments

[Sharon]

Did you happen to read Melting Mama's food porn about the popcorn snacks? I just ordered myself a whole buttload. Because it's popcorn, which I also love, and there is chocolate LOL.

[Shell]

Thats funny, I was going to say the same thing about MM's popcorn! LOL Also...I don't think body dysmorphia is limited to anorexics/bulemics at all...us WLS folks spend a large portion of our lives viewing a big ole body in the mirror, it's no wonder we have trouble adjusting to the fact that it's not so big anymore!